Hello september, hello autumn

Hello old friend,
what kind of depression do you have for me this year?

The one I'm feeling dead inside?
The one I'm really really sensitive about everything?
The one where I can't find the colors in my life?
The one where I feel frozen and freezing?
The one where I am lost and can't seem to know myself anymore?
The one where I feel really lonely?
The one where you bring back old painful memories?
The one where no matter what I do I feel sad and empty?
or maybe...
The one where I have a mixture of anger and regret inside and I don't even know why?
No?
Oh...maybe the one where I don't have any inner motivation anymore?
...the one I lose my will to live?



You know what autumn?
In the past...6-7 years you always had one of these for me, or maybe a mix of them.
Anyway, the point is, things are now different.
Many people say the autumn depression is a cliche, but I think not.
At least for me it wasn't.
Summer was over=holiday was over
Holiday was over=school started
School started=Problems started
etc. etc. etc.

I know is not gonna be easy this year either. But at least I will fight this vicious circle messing up my life every year.

This time I want to say:
"Hello autumn!" with a smile on my face.

I promise I'll try to see the goods of this season and I'll repaint my room SCREAMING ORANGE with YELLOW DOTS if that will be necessary.

So, I don't know what the end of summer means for you all, but I wish you'll have one hell of a nice autumn.

I know I'll try to have one.